well.,like wise.,Im not really lucky in LOVE but yeah.,Im trying to search for a perfect Mr Right., I mean.,all these years.,I always impressing Mr.Wrong,.why should I??????hmmm thats the reason why people always says that LOVE IS BLIND.,hmmm I cant see the sincerity in their heart.,why? all guys that Ive been dating with.,always lie to me.,over and over again.,I really want to get over it for awhile.,then suddenly I met this one special guy that really amazed me with his humor.,haha he always make me smile and he made my day., *smile* he really make me forget all of my heartache., Like seriously.,non of the boys that I hang out with can do that.,not even can make me laugh my lungs out., *thanks tau u* then I fall-in-love with him so badly.,I dont know why but yeah I really concern bout him.,so much.,so so damn much.,he change my perspective of love and yeah he really changed me.,from bad to good.,He changed the way I walk.,the way I talk the way I hang out.,everything.,I dont know if its good or bad but yeah.,I still cant see the setback of all the view and my self.,everything was changed when he came along.,just like in the song I dedicated to him., :) I really2 grateful that Allah S.W.T sent me him., *tears* I did cry a lot for some reasons and yes its bout him and again!! I dont really see the result but Im not really care of that., *yeah kepale batu I know* hahaha hmmmm Im a very hardcore lover yea I know.,lets say KIPAS SUSAH MATI?? hahaha termasok ke?? hmmm whatever lah.,yea If I fall-in-love with someone I really wanted to have him for the rest of my life.,its hard for me to left him off da hook.,but Allah didnt really give me the permission to love him just yet.,
WHY??
coz he already got somebody to love and its no me.,His current GF.,he did asked me if Im still hoping for him.,simple answer., with no time I says YES.,coz I really2 love him.,what should I do?? but yeah I did flirt around to forget the heartache word and painful some sort of quotes to me.,hahah "YOU KNOW ITS IMPOSSIBLE TO HAVE ME" haha What da...~~ yeah really hurts but relax zee.,for get that word for awhile.,I really2 wanna learn to forget him and I really wanna learn to hate him.,but like wise.,SUSAH!! sayangggg sangat kart die.,but I really need to back off., hmmmm my sister always ckp "U CKP NAK LUPE.,JUST DO IT" and also my brother ckp like this "AKU XPENAH DGR KO HAPPY NGAN BALAK KO.,ADE JELA MASALAH" hahahah hmmm nak wat macam mane.,I slalu terperangkap ngan BF orang.,dulu Kay.,pastu Ryan., then Ady.,pastu die plak.,hmmm macam2 laaa.,
YA ALLAH.,KAU KUATKANLAH SEMANGAT HAMBAMU YANG KERDIL LAGI HINA INI DARI SEGALA CABARAN OLEH ENGKAU YA ALLAH., PERMUDAHKANLAH BAGI AKU UNTUK MENEMPUH SEGALA CABARAN TANPA RASA TERLUKA.,AMIN~xpelah.,maybe this is not the time for me yeat but I try to forget.,but I dont want to do that If can.,coz I really love him like totaly.,I did cry if he ignored me and I really touched if he didnt even call me.,yeah I know I didnt deserve to feel that coz he got his GF to entertain and I really hurt to know if he dont even love me at all.,hmmm sokay lah.,maybe time can help me to forget bout him.,InsyaAllah.,but I'd promised my self to love him.,and I do.,I bear and willing to wait till he really open his heart to accept me., :( I will.,So,.thats all.,I really need to wipe my tears now.,
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