unpleasant thought.,

to be honest im not really like the way i think right now.,its like im jeopardizing my own relationship.,i dont really know why im thinking this way.,i dont believe in my self that i could make my bf happy to be wth me.,and also i dont think my family proud of me...why on earth i should thinking this way..?sh*t la.,i didnt really kua bilik often recently.,often off my phone so that nobody disturb me.,im stress,furious n also fatique.,dahla skolah nak bukak dah*hurrmmm* dah la.,xde mood ark nak taip.,

sadness.,

hes not even msging me.,not even once.,im worried if i ade wat die marah or benci ke.,

ape ko wat kali nie b???!!!!

adoyai.,again he makes me xsenang dudok.,b.,im sorry la if i wat u furious or something.,b please.,calllllllllllllllllllllllllll meeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee., ;(

Bandung Vacation.,

BANDUNG

does it look nice..??hehe nice some of the gamba yg i xsempat nak upload aritu.,nie aku tangkap when i was at pasar baru near my hotel.,eventhough its look messy but.,i love to tengok this pic coz it make me calm.,i dont know why.., LMAO

this pic also make me calm.,i love to tgk this pic OsO.,bile tgk je pic nie.,rase rindu gyle kart bandung.,rase cham nak pegi lagi kart sane.,

nie nasi padang.,i forgot the name of the kedai.,but its totaly nice.,yg pelik kart sini.,lauk2 yg kart dalam gamba nie bukan kitorang order.,tapi dieorang yg bagi.,they letak variety of lauk and u all can choose whatever lauk u want.,BUT.,u all have u choose ape yg u all nak makan only.,IF u all touch lauk yg u all xnak,.nak xnak u all kene bayar gark.,so the moral of the story.,dont touch if u dont want.,

uuuuuuwwwhhhh yeahhhhhh.,im a starbuck lover though.,hahaha i love caramel machiatto like hell.,hahaha its like my oxygen.,LMAO.,this pic i took when Im at CI WALK mall., masok2 je on the right ade starbuck on the left ade J CO.,then i went to giordano to beli kay punye baju., i warned giordano lovers.,better shopping giordano kart malaysie coz giordano kart bandung mahal-er than malaysia.,tapi terpulang la.,i on je.,huhuhu tapi bile tgk bdk2 kart CI WALK mall nie just like bdk2 lepak kart KLCC.,sejibik wa cakap same lu.,

kan kan kan.,same x..?huhuhu rindu gyle kart klcc time tu.,gelap..?baru pukol 6ptg.,jap jap jap., ade agie pic kart CI WALK.,

isnt it beautiful????LMAO.,best best best.,die punye tempat cham cineleasure+klcc=CI WALK.,betollll.,try la pegi.,

bow-son

yesterday bosan gyle.,nowhere to go dono what to do.,just blogging n chatting at myspace.,this thursday are my reunion celebration at jj au2.,hope so gonna be so much fun., coz i dont want a wack party., haha well today 's plan., make my self bz with house word., im gonna kemas my room after 3weeks xkemas., LOL yela always holiday sampai bilik pown xterkemas., i thought wanna go to the PJKN camp today.,but my boyfie dont let me go coz hes afraid something happen there.,

*hes totaly took extra care of me*

:DD thats y i love him so damn much., but my friends leman merayu like totaly coz he wanted me to go to that camp., rase cham malas pown ade gark., huhuhu papelah., but i miss them a lot., i miss mieza,zizan,ben,ena,byha,syera,a-are.,sume la.,unfortunately.,thon depan dah xdpt nak join mane2 camp da.,coz i have to prepare 110% for my STPM.,eeerrrgghhh what-so-fucking-ever la.,

trip to bandung.,

december 9 was the day my trip to bandung.Best die gyle bab* punye.,ok ok,first g lcct dalam kol 12.30tgh hari from lukut,N.9.,then sampai dlm kol 2.10ptg.,flight aku dalam kol 3.45ptg., then naik flight tido ark.,pkl 5.45ptg sampai bandung.., bile turon dari flight kitorang tros tgk gamba.,tapi kejap je ark coz kene halau.,ahahhah tapi flight attendent die kacak gyle ark.,tapi kay aku lagi kacak.,hahahaha pastu bile dah amik2 beg ape sume ade lelaki pegang kertas tulis name mama.,aku pown pelik ark asal die tulis name mama.,then mama said hes our driver and tour guide.,oowwhh no wonder.,then die bawak kitorang to our hotel.,it called arion swiss-belhotel.,3star.,u should stay there bout 3 or 4 days though.,very cheap..,

there got spa,nice swimming pool.,pool die kart tingkat 5.,tapi lift tu sampai tingkat 4., so korang kene naik tangge ark.,die punye layanan bagus.,everythings good.,nothings wack.,food was totaly awsome..,but breakfast die xberape nak best coz dalam 4 ari aku dok hotel tu.,tiap pagi yg same je aku mengadap.,haha ape yg aku makan salad with chease scramble egg with chease and cereals., air oren n milk.,tapi kart sane lambat satu jam.,korang kene bangun kol 6pg tok breakfast.,u all dapat rase cham kol 8 or 9pg tau.,sebab ape tau.,coz kol 5pg die terang ya amat.,tapi kalu kol 6ptg cam kol 7.30 malam.,so kol 6.30pg kitorang breakfast then kol 7pg tgu driver to hanta kitorang g jalan2..,hari kedue kitorang pegi volcano punye tempat.,bende tu dah meletus.,volcano meletup paling besa

kart dunie kowt.,maybe la.,coz ive been informed like that though.,

when u all naik atas tu bapak sejuk doe., pastu u all kene tahan la ngan perangai paparazi kart situ(i used to called the penjual there paparazi)u all will know why.,hahaha selagi u all xbeli brg yg dey all jual.,selagi tu dey all xpegi from u., eerrgghh.,annoying gyle.,key chain only they sell Rp100.,with Rp!100 u can buy a guess tshirt.,my brother da menyesal gyle beli kinda-ugly look hat., LMAO.,hes so dumb.,and totaly smelly.,i mean the smell of belerang.,eerrgghh.,smell like hell.,LOL.,i love the wind.,so cold n make me blue.,nyeoit.,ahahaha then we headed to villa triniti jln.sersan bajuri for lunch., but it a bit terpencil ark.,coz the restoran is in the house area.,but the food was totaly hit the blast.,i ordered chicken steak and caramel machiatto peerrgghh sedap die walawey.,i ade captured the food pic but i dont know why its so stupid cannot upload the pic.,then i bought a smurfetti t-shirt about Rp6200.,so nice shirt.,then we're going to hot spring there.,bole tahan best but i prefer hot spring kart sg.klah perak.,more exciting.,then after been chasing by the bunch of paparazi there we're move to paris van java for shopping.,who roxy/quiksilver,MNG, esprit loverz.,go here to shop to the top here.,but actually the mall are not so nice for me la.,for u all mane lah i tau., then we went back to hotel n have a beauty sleep.,for the next day.,we're went to CI.WALK.,theres a lot of cartoon shop its more to super hero la,like superman*i bet faizal tahir will love this place*hahaha if u all nak search for a jeans and football tshirt go to toko tiga shop.,theres a lot of levis and what-so-ever kind of jeans.,then we went to rumah mode at jalansetiabudhi.,i warned to all zara,roxy,guess,bebe,and all branded lover.,go to the rumah mode shop.,its like heaven.,and im totaly rambang mate there tau.,hahaha and ive got what i wanted.,but im still searching for miu miu bag.,i cant find it.,*eerrgghh*crap and also jimmy choo shoe.,aarrgghhh then we went to our hotel and again have a beauty rest.,ehehe then the last day.,mama bought kartika sari punye brownies its more cheaper n tastier than amanda brownies.,mama beli satu kotak kau.,haahaha then i went back to paris van java to buy roxy punye file.,yg paling bengang kasut roxy the latest one.,baru sampai nak beli tapi aarrgggghhhhh xde size.,paling kecik size 8.,aarrrrrggghhh aku punye kaki size 6., sedeyh gyle.,tapi xpe.,cari je la kart kl ea,yg paling pening nak cari present for chuie(karat's gf) and kay.,cume kedai aku masok tapi still pening xtau nak beli ape.,the dengan fikiran yg buntu i bought giodano t-shirt n Man.U t-shirt for him n a bandung t-shirt for chuie and also a phone key chain with a letter C for her.,sorry babe next time i belikan u something more precious k darling.,m :DD hahahah and da abis bout my day at bandung.,so try ark g bandung.,next year xtau mane plak nak pegi., australia perhaps., :p hope so la kan.,huhu ok bye.,

perginye seorang insan...,

tuesday.,december 2nd 2008.,huh xleyh lupe kejadian nie doe.,pkl 10.,aku dalam bilik ngan diana gelak2.,then jasmine from bilik ayah tros dtg ketok pintu kuat2 and said that ive a bad news., i said what.,n she said mak meninggal.,xpecaye langsong coz last jumpe hari raye.,arwah sihat lagi.,but sakit la.,she like kene angin ahmar or something.,tekejot gark ark.,aku nak jadi gyle dah doe.,yela orang yg slalu bagi aku semagat,yg selalu ade bile aku ade masalah.,yg aja aku megaji n aja aku masak.,die lah segale-galeye.,walaupon shes just my aunty.,mesti korang pelik kan.,actually die mak long aku.,lepas ayah cerai ngan mak.,mak long la yg jage aku.,dari aku kecik sampai skang.,aku terlalu rapat ngan die thats y aku panggil die mak.,bile balek kampong, die la orang petame aku cari.,tapi skang shes gone.,n aku xtau nak balek kmpong lagi ke x.,die xde dah xbermakne doe idop nie.,akak ejah soh aku doa tok mak tiap hari.,tu dah semestinye doe.,mak tiap hari ade dlm pikiran aku.,huh.,aku ingat lagi muke mak.,mase aku bace yassin sebelah mak.,pak ngah bukak kain kart muke mak.,aku terstop kejap.,then acik yg tengah mengaji pown stop.,kitorang acik terlalu sedih.,aku plak dah xdapat nak teroskan.,but when aku teringat blek wheen mak ajak aku mengaji.,aku teroskan gark.,pas abis bace yasin.,aku pegang tangan mak yg kene tutop ngan kain batik tu.,tangan mak sejuk sangat.,i was shivering when i hold mak's hand.,its for the last time im holding her hand.,aku sedeyh gyle coz aku xdapat nak mandikan mak.,coz its too ramai orang yg mandikan mak.,mak im sorry.,tapi what ever it is.,i always pray for u mak.,akak ade said to me that dont forget to pray for u.,and i wont mak.,u alyas in my mind.,every single day mak.,mak.,im sorry if i make u mad or sad mak.,totaly sorry., i love u mak.,sape lagi nak aja i masak mak.,if mak da xde.,tapi mak.,u still my mak long yg paling i sayang.,diharapkan mak ditempatkan dengan orang orang yg beriman..,dan semoge rohnye dicucuri rahmat ilahi.,amin

AL-FATIHAH

hurmmm.,

december 1st 2008.,cepat tol mase berlalu ann ann ann.,haha malam nie bosan gyle doe.,da la xde credit.,nak msg kay pown xdapat.,adoyai.,nak tgk tv xde cite yg menarik langsong.,next week da gerak bandung.,nak lepak ngan kay plak die always bz ngan die punye show.,xnak la kacau keje die.,cian die.,eergghh mish him so damn freaking fucking much though.,talk about missing.,i missing all my PJKN buddies.,yela 10days aku ngan dieorang.,its not a short time.,
AKAN TETAPI
im missing them JUST as a FRIENDS.,never ever more than it.,ok kay.,dieorang just my friends., huhu kay xpecaye yg aku xde pape ngan budak2 tu.,yela klu aku, aku pown syak yg kakaseh aku terikat ngan memane budak kart camp tu.,tapi aku tetap ngan bubu mucux aku.,memang xdinafikan ade ramai orang mintak no phone tapi hanye sekadar berkawan., serious aku xde hati pown kart memane jantan kart situ.,hhuurrmmm rindu nak bgon pagi n wat pt pagi ngan dieorang.,then have a performance.,haha too nice to be reality ark., time Y2Y yg aku pegi aritu xde la best sangat coz xramai.,nie ramai skit.,jumpe adik2 baru.,cham byha, syida,hani,syera ramai agie la.,xingat ark name.,huhu they asked me to hang out but im too bz to hanging out.,sorry darling.,nanti bby xbz kite hangout eyh., ayah said ever since aku tolak politeknik,and proceed STPM.,aku kene study n prepare for my big exam next year.,so aku kene study dah skang.,tuition la dol.,but sumpah weyh aku nak 4P STPM nie.,nak msok U and kua jadi lawyer yg bergaye.,eeyyhh berjaye daa..,hahahah xnak menmain cham SPM aku dulu., hahaha papehal la.,korang wish aku luck tau.,k dada